A night to love and a day to hate
An intense feening that I can't escape
All the heartache and pain's away
But the indeciveness still remains
If this is heaven then I'd love to say
That it's forsaken and such a lonely place

I tell you that I hate you because I do
You love to make me feel so confused
And my mind and my heart still argue
With these doubts I have of you
If this is heaven then I'd love to say
That it could be such a depressing place
And if I remain here then would you stay?

Slowly and sober is when you say
That you could do this all night every day
Sleeping seems like such a waste
But loving you leaves a sour aftertaste
If this is heaven then I would love to say
That I cannot leave this bitterweet place
And if I remain here then would you stay?

To keep me
In reality
Those were harsh words you didn't mean to say
To free me
From fantasy
You only try to help cuz you think you can save me
So save me

If this is heaven then I must say
I could learn to love being here
If this is heaven then I must say
How bad I wish that you were here

If this is heaven then I'd love to say
That I'm certain we can find a way
For me to remain here and for you to stay

If this is heaven,
Is this heaven,
Am I in heaven?

Never was a lovely girl
Never had the confidence
To take the bull by the horns
Sat with him in silence
Agreeing with his every word
Doesn't want my opinion
Because he knows what I'd say,
I'd say "This is all ridiculous,
Use your own common sense."

He forgot I was there
He forgot I was there
He forgot I existed
If I may excuse myself I'll just drift to sleep
I'll go my own way

Cruising down that street again
Mysteriously drawn down
With friend like you I need enemies
At least I know they'd stick around
Asking you how far you'd go
Asking if you knew
Exactly how ridiculous all this is
Why don't you use some common sense

You forgot I was here
You forgot I was here
You forgot I exist
If you care, I'll walk myself home now
I'll go my own way

Never was a lovely girl
Never had your confidence

By the way, I found a life with god
Byt the way, I've got a new life with god

Focus in on your sweet stone face
Through wall to wall strangers
But they disappear
And I know that my life won't pass me by
Because you take it slow
And I can enjoy the ride

And if heaven does exist
Then I just felt it, cuz it hit
Quicker than I thought it would

So Numb
Made me dizzy

In the dark you've worshipped me
I played the role of your goddess
I hid my feelings hoping they'd go astray
I was so fragile and modest
You think cuz I'm unreliable
I wouldn't fit this puzzle of your life
You're blind
Once mine
I'm incoherent

Chorus:
You make my mouth go numb
You love to turn me on
You turned it off then pretend there's nothing wrong
With all the fish in this world
I think I should learn to swim

In the cold you're flying now
And all you heard were his words
"I'm not in love but I'm gonna fuck you
Til someone better comes along"
No one ever said it so well
I sang along with all my heart and soul
You're blind
You're spineless
I'm nonchalant

Chorus:
You make my insides turn
You love to pull my hair
And you pushed me to parts unaware
With all the fruit in this world
I think I've grown hungry

I've gone and rearranged my life
You've gone and threw it all away

Chorus:
You make me grow silent
You love to smear my lipstick
You got creative and you took back your kiss
With all the roses in this world
I think I'll take my pick

I hate that you only call me when you want me
Why does my life go according to yours?
And when I think I won't up being fucked
It seems I'm in your bed once more

I gave so much to you in hopes that I'd recieve
And all I got was this god damn hangover
And you still disguise your lies with sugar
Smoother they'll convince me 'til I'm sober

Painted me a picture and all it did was fade
Never wanted me but you still had to get
Erased me from the page and call me cuz you're bored
I fucking wish we hadn't met

BEG TO ME!!
BEG FOR ME!!

Chorus: Keep on begging
Keep on praying
I will not succomb to you charm cuz you're sweet is now sour
Pray to your god
Get on your knees
Cuz I won't succomb to the taste of your lips
They're sour

I know your weakness I'll use it against you
Did you really think I was innocent
Expect me to say how high when asked to jump
Openly display your arrogance

BEG FOR ME!
I CAN'T HEAR YOU!
-chorus 2x-

You fucking fag your lines don't work anymore
You fucking dick I've heard all of those lines before
And now don't you wish that you could hate me
Don't you wish you could fuck me!

Always in the heat of the moment
I'd get caught up within your flames
I never knew but always had a feeling that
All of your fire was ignited artificially

Whispered all the words I needed to hear
And I held them in such high regard
But they were just some more of your thoughts
And all you ever said was thought of artificially

Chorus: How much would you pay
If I sold you my sould
It's wearing thin
But in good condition
How much would you pay
If you pawned my soul
For your addictions

Always in the back of my mind
I knew you gave into pressures
Your life wasn't all that you praised about
But I never thought you'd life live artifially

Every night, everyday that I spent with you
You and I were never sober
You said I was a drug and you were addicited
You needed a fix of me and artificially

-Chorus-

SAME OLD TRIP!

Naturally I'd abide and condone your habits
Bite my tongue as you would prove me wrong
Now your laughter has become bitter anger
You try to regain it all and just can't
Unfortunately Icouldn't help your cause
Because I couldn't figure out the symptoms
Even if I coaxed you through the withdrawal
When you're clean you would only hate me

-Chorus-

Slowly my hands open
And my heart unravels
All I wanted to keep
Somehow got misplaced

My hands are empty
And my heart is vacant
If you come back
Can we make new love?

Can you return
The way you left
Suddenly

Was I such a burden?

Whenever you touch me do you really feel me
Go inside your mind see what I can find
Burning flesh amesh why are you so selfish
So enguled in percocets
Using them as your excuse to forget

Taking my time with responding
There's no reason to respond

Chorus: Try to find reasons for your m.i.a.
So that it wouldn't hurt so much
Did you think if you were gone
That I can forget just as easily

Taking my time with responding to you because you don't
(And if I held my breath) I would be dead now
(And if I kept waiting) I would have grown old
(So engulfed in percocets) Say what you feel like
(Use them as excuses) To forget tomorrow

Chorus: I philosophized all of your motives
So that it wouldn't hurt as much
Your clever thoughts could've worked
If I thought exactly the way you did

Chorus: I try to analyze our last few moments
So that it wouldn't hurt this much
If you thought that when you're gone
That I'd forget, well then you thought worng

YOU THOUGHT WRONG!
YOU THOUGHT WRONG!

There's something to be said about selective memory
But you don't remember how it goes
And I refuse to remind you
There's something to say about your selective memory
But you don't remember how it went
And I won't remind you

Paranoid man (so scared)
My final request (one wish)
Just be man enough to face off with death
Little man (so scared)
My last request (last wish)
To be man enough to stare death in the face

Shallow and dull and striking enough
To have it twice but will never take risks (just once)
And if you have good reasons
Then do you care to explain
Why you'd wanna sweep me off my feet then inject me with pain? (inject)
Why bother using your charm? (Don't remember how it goes but I'm not reminding you)
Why you'd wanna wisk me away just to infect me with pain?

Paranoid man (you're scared)
My final wish (request)
Just be man enough to stare down at death
Little man (so scared)
My last request (last wish)
Be man enough to spend the nght with death

(Face off, fess up, find out, man up)
BE A MAN
(Get off, clean up, get lost, wake up)
BE A MAN

(If I held my breath I would be dead)

Can you
Tell apart
The sly devil from the woman
Or do you need my help to differentiate?
And I
Create
An alter ego that you
Carry within you and cherish deep inside

Prechorus: I come to you
In your sleep
I attack and suffocate yor mind
You cum with me
In your dreams
Try to express, you try to explain

Chorus 1: How apparasions of me torment you
Resorted me to evil
But that's what you'd prefer
Confused
You awake
I wasn't there

Lost yorself
In my darkness
And you say you want me to save you
Sorry sugar I can barely save myself
Tried to
Take you
Naturally and with consent but
Witout my little push you wouldn't be here now

-Prechorus-
Chorus 2: How apparasions of me torture you
You don't remember clearly
But will never let it go
I'm not there
And you awake

And we never conversate
'Bout the nightmare that you felt
Aestically succombing to
The realness that made you melt

How can I take pleasure in this
If I'm never there when you are here

I'm just knowing
That you're aching
-Chorus 1-

Apparasions of me suck you dry
Confused
You awake
I'm still not there

Chorus: Visions are everything that I live for
Realizing that it's over now
Never to return
And in my mind can I reclaim my time
Though it's gone
And it's never, never, never, never returning again

Beginning to wonder
I'm understanding my place
Remembering the nights
That it all went to waste
Everthing has changed
I recall there was a time
When it was about me
Only now it's far behind

Chorus: Remember every word I said to you
They were all true, I never lie
Remember
Everyhing I live for
Realize that it's all over now
But not gone
I need to reclaim, regain, recall what I've lost
Can I reclaim, regain, recall all I've lost
And if I fail at least I know that I was wrong

Wish I didn't beleieve
In true love and all it's worth
Someone will end up wrong
And someone will end up hurt
We can't deny the truth
But we can't express it too
If things were different now
Then maybe I would be with you

Chorus: Visions are what I live my life for
But there's no time to wait
Remember
The words I've said to you
Because one day they just may all come true
One day soon
Maybe they'll never, never, never ever to return
But if I reclaim, regain, recall what I lost
Then maybe that day I'll know that I wasn't wrong

I wish I could talk to you
I wish that I could see you
I wish that I could love you

Chorus: So I'll remember with the pain what I have lost
It's a heartache each day
But I'll know
There was at least a chance
There are fears but they're all in the past
Far behind
I need to reclaim, regain, recall what Ive lost
And I do not give a damn about the cost
Because I know that in my heart I am not wrong